I don’t want my kids growing up afraid to tell me things. You drank? Okay. You smoked? Okay. You’re struggling? That’s alright. I want them to be able to talk to me without feeling like they’re going to be punished, so they end up isolating and keeping things from me. I want them to feel safe opening up to me without fear or judgment. When it’s hard to trust anyone nowadays, I want them to know I am always here, even when everyone leaves.
(via goodreadss)
you are more.
You are so much more than the words I’ve been searching for in the dark nights I spend alone in bed,
It makes me wonder what goes on inside your head,
And it makes me see things that aren’t there.
Because I see a dark thats hard to create.
Different.
Inside of you there is an infinite amount of possibilities I feel forbidden to explore,
Like a cave in the dark, that is screaming at you to not go in, but gnaws at your mind when you leave it be.You are the sea before a storm and the calm that follows;
You are even more than I could imagine-
You are the sun setting after the winter storm
And the clouds holding in their sorrowful tears long enough to let it sink;
You are the bright brown of my sister’s eyes,
The light twinkling behind them left over from when she laughed for the sake of it
And she was free and the storm was gone,
You are still more.You are more.
You are the star’s light in the middle of the night when I am lost and alone again.
You are broken and terrible.
How much I really like you.
It’s not romantic, but i wouldn’t mind my face up against yours..
You don’t know because I don’t know how to go about telling you
That moment when you think you’re important to someone, and you’re not
I just realized that I have never been brave for myself to stand for what I want and what I think is right. I have grown to be a coward who always thinks of what other people might say about me lol I never fully lived my life.
p0rt:
siguro pagkagising mo, sinuka mo lahat ng alaala na ininom nating nung gabi na tayo ay nagkakilala.
I guess we just drifted apart.
to the other me who might still be with him in some other world,
everything must’ve happened differently to you. you were wiser. hopefully, your choices made both of you happy. i wish it didn’t hurt you, or him or anybody. i hope you’re crying less.
take care of him. appreciate him. don’t take for granted everything he’s doing for you, all that summer morning jogging routine, or that afternoon where you ran after him and you went home together, watchinghim play basketball, talking under that tree about your plans once you go to college, and how you’d see each other. stand up for him, say to your father how much good he is. did you do all of that? i hope so. when you get into fights say sorry immediately, dont leave him waiting on the phone all night. dont start petty fights. say what’s on your mind instead of making him guess. hold his hand tighter. kiss him longer any chance you get. don’t do dumb stuff, that can wait. be honest. tell him to be honest. tell him he’s enough for you and say sorry when you hurt him for making him feel he’s not enough or just any time when you recklessly spit out words. make him laugh. don’t make him cry. say thank you when he goes out of his way to see you. do everything you can to make him feel you love him. write him songs, he loves music so much. let him know in everything you do he’s your everything.
it may have turned out rough for us. we hurt each other too much. but if it’s different for you, don’t let him go. don’t give up on him the way i did. i know he’s happy that you’re together. the plans we had in this world didn’t come true, but i hope in there, it would.
- another me
And so the cycle breaks+
I needed you, that’s what I thought.
Little did I know it was love that I needed.
It was love that I yearned.
Your kind of love was different, though.
You’ve been sad and scarred and shattered from the love of your pasts.
Maybe that’s the only form of love you knew existed.
So when you came close, your love burnt me.
The cycle has got to end.
I don’t want to hurt people just like what you did to me.
Still, I wouldn’t have found the love I needed for myself, if it hadn’t been for you.
So I started giving it to myself instead.
You know how they say we shouldn’t hurt the people we love?
If that’s the case, then I won’t get hurt again the moment I learn to love myself.
-mikko
sinukuan mo kahit mahal na mahal mo
I’m constantly torn between “if it’s meant to be, it will be” and “if you want it, go and get it.”
His pledge to her:
i will kill the spiders. i will share my fries with you when you’ve finished all yours and are still hungry. i won’t ever pop my collar. i will never be rude to your tummy- when i hear it growl and gurgle. i promise to bend down and reply respectfully. i will eat the mushrooms when we order the supreme pizza. i will kiss the papercuts. and the door-slammed finger, and the counter-bumped hip. i’ll try my hardest not to get annoyed when you whisper questions and comments during movies. i will be the big spoon. i will let you win at wrestling, sometimes. other times i will not. i will go faster. harder. i will pull when you want. and tease you when you don’t. i will send you random texts and leave you silly gifts. not always. not on schedule. just whenever i want to. whenever i think you need one. or seven. i will check your tire pressure. and remind you to take your car in. i will hold your hand. i will love you. i will love you. i will love you.
I’m pretty sure I’ve reblogged this before, but it’s so perfect.
